“My beloved Flocka,
Whatever I write here will never ever do you justice, explain the pain I feel, but ultimately the amount of love I had, and still have for you!
You made me an uncle for the 5th time – I waited 15 years for you to come along, and boy were you worth the wait: you were the most beautiful and smiliest chunky monkey imaginable, and just like the 4 times before, I agreed in my uncle contract to love you like you was one of my own, which I did.
As life went on you became a friend to me, as much as my nephew, and our times up at Chelsea will never be forgotten. As an uncle, you enter into a spiritual contract to love, care for, and protect your nephew, the first two I did with aplomb, but I’m sorry I could not do the 3rd..I’m just thankful that grand dad was there for you!
The pain that is felt for your taking, is the other end of the scale of the love we had, and still have for you. I have learnt so much about you Connor Charles Edward Saunders, since you have gone, I have learnt at to what extent your giving and kind nature went, how you helped people, and the compassion you have showed…all without telling us about it, and that is the characteristics of one of gods earth angels! You gave us life spiritualy when you were here, but you have given it physically after your taking, and that is proof that you were as close to perfection as you could get, and it is up to us to follow your examples, to do you proud, and to carry on your fantastic, beautiful work!
We can not let you of been taken in vain, you see Connor, you lived more in 19 years, than most would do in 100 lifetimes, that is how I strive to be. Thank you for blessing us with your love, your kindness, your gentleness and your teachings! For you truly were saintly, you were my nephew, and most of all my friend!
Please hear me when I talk to you, hear me when I say I love you, hear me when I say I miss you, hear me when I say I’m so proud of you, and help me along life’s path please, because my heart has been broken,and will never be the same again, so all the help you can spare would be so appreciated! Please do what I asked of you when I stroked your hair, and whispered in your ear as you were resting on your bed. Please look over Tilly and Stan, and please drop in on your old Unc now and again, to let me know what magical and wonderful things you’ve been doing.
You were too good for this earth babybear, and you now have your wings, fly high and do not look back… Connor Charles Edward Saunders, you were born an angel, and died a legend.I was blessed to of had you in my life, and I will look forward to cuddling you again.”
Your friend, football partner and Uncle,